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Hey guys!
I know I haven't blogged in a REALLY long time. Things are so crazy. School has gotten so intense. I will try to write more and make more time to blog for my amazing followers and viewers. My next posts are going to be extremely relatable for any teenager. Whether your a boy or a girl. We all have that one person in our life who gives us that feeling of the cliché "butterflies". As my school year comes to a close and I tie it up with a cute little graduation bow, I want to take time to thank and honor the people who love and accept me for who I used to be, who I am, and who I will become. I know I have a long way to go, so does everyone. But the people I surround myself with are key to being able to get through it. So I want to leave you all with this, Surround yourself with good people who share the same morals you have. Surround yourself with people who truly care about you and want the best for you. They may be hard on you at times, but it's for the best. Always remember that its better to have a few true friends than a sea of people who could care less about whatever you do. HAVE A GREAT SPRING BREAK... Even though it may feel like winter break part 2!

Love you lots!

My Perfect Fairy Tale

There was an absence of something; something real, something true. You can’t see it. You had to feel it. No one could point it out from across the room; it had to be felt in someone’s heart.

       I loved him. Not just any love. The kind of love you see on movies. The kind of love you see people searching for their whole lives. I was searching and searching, miles and miles for something that was right in front of me. This love wasn’t just love. It was deeper. There is no deeper thing than love… right? If there was I felt it.

       Love isn’t just one word. When it is said to someone, standard protocol is to say, “ I love you”. When said together “I love you” is a phrase. It is 3 syllables, 5 vowels, 3 consonants, 2 nouns, many meanings, a big lie, one emotion, and a rare truth.

       They are words that I would say if one thing wasn’t in the back of my mind holding me back “What If”. "What ifs" haunted me every night while lay in bed, they stand between every wish, every dream, and every fantasy that one can have. I was about to put everything to rest with one conversation that I was still in shock about having. You can never mentally prepare yourself enough for this moment.

       In fact, no one is ever afraid to tell someone that they love them, they are always afraid of what kind of reaction they will get. If I knew what he would say. I would of told him years ago. Since I am not a reader and DO NOT have the power to read minds, I have to take a chance, put on my big girl pants a take a giant leap of faith. This leap wasn’t like any other leap… like from the woodchips to the grass on the playground. This was like jumping out of a plane while skydiving and not knowing if your parachute will work when you are ready to pull it. I was moments away from jumping and knowing for a fact if this parachute was going to be there when I needed it most. This was the moment of a life time.

“ How long have you felt this way?”

“ I don’t know… five years.”

“Why didn’t you say any thing. All those times when I came to you for advice you never thought you should of say “Hey bro! I’m in love with you!”

“ I don’t know. I didn’t want so seem weird. You always seemed so happy, and we were going so well… I didn’t want to sacfirice anything.’

“Yeah. There has to be something else. You’re my best friend. You would of told me.”

“ Well yeah, There is. I was never afraid to say the words “I love you” I was afraid of what kind of reaction I would get. Right now I am getting no reaction. Which Is good and absolutely terrifying. You could walk out of here and never speak to me again…”

“You know that’s never going to happen”

“Let me finish… You could say your okay with it but then what’s going to happen tomorrow? Huh?”

“ I don’t know.”

“Me either.”

“I just wish you would of said something. Maybe I could of done something sooner. All I know right now… Is that I feel the same for you. “

“You don’t have to lie and spear my feelings. I’m a big girl. I can take it.”

“Well then take this, because I love you.”

My Perfect Fairy Tale,

By: anonymous

        

Catching Feelings by Justin Bieber

"I may be too young for love, but I'm catching feelings." (:

Give up?

I was listening to music last night and one song came on that sounded like my life, maybe yours too.

When there is this one person, who knows you like the back of your right hand. He makes you laugh when it feels impossible. He can always get that sappy reaction out of you when he says something sweet even when you try to put up a wall so that no one can get in. He breaks that wall each and every time... Without even trying. So effortlessly. 

We've been best of friends since we were "this" high. So why do I get so nervous every time he walks by? Every change I get that we can hang out or talk or just be together I take it. When ever we are together I forget about everything. About school, life, friends, problems that I am always forced to fix... I think back to when we used to be back in Elementary School and all of those problems were nonexistent. When I was his best friend and he was mine. When we used to laugh at silly stupid things. When our only homework was to go outside and enjoy the beautiful day. When I didn't have to worry about someone else becoming his best friend. 

It's stressful. Not knowing if your the only one who has feelings for someone. Your too afraid that things will change, so you simply bite your tongue and say nothing. I have said nothing for over four years. I'm done waiting and hoping. You just hope that someone out there is spending enough time and energy on you as you spend on that one person. It feels hopeless. Your heart is heavy. Your head and heart don't agree. You will lie in bed one night and go on and on forever in your head explaining how your done and can't take the heartache anymore. Because you don't want to put yourself through it anymore and feel like you have no energy left for one person. The next day something will happen that makes you regret what you said and turn back. 

Nothing will change. Its cool hoping and praying tho. 

Dreams.

This morning I woke up in the middle of one of the best dreams of my life... You just wish you could go back to sleep and have the same dream you were trying to have before. You just wish!

Happiness resides not in posessions and not in gold; the feeling of happiness dwells in the soul.

Democritus